Spin the wheel, double down, let it ride…being able to say cool stuff like that didn’t exactly help me to not love gambling as much as did. I know it was wrong having a gambling addiction but there were some fun aspects of having one. Okay, maybe there weren’t that many fun things about having one. I hated that I got instant gratification from winning in any game that I could gamble. Hell, I even got excited when I would lose. When I lost I got excited about having another chance to win again. I knew I had a problem but I just couldn’t stop. The rush was insane and it only got worse and needed to be fed more frequently as time went on. I thought about getting help a million times but it was never the gamble that I was ready to take. It wasn’t until I started losing my entire paychecks that I woke up and decided to get treatment. My gambling addiction could have ruined my life, but the treatment i received kept me from destroying what left of it. These days I occasionally get the urge to roll the dice or deal the cards, but I finally realized that my life should never have been a gambling chip.